===== Terek's temporary quaters Starbase 485 ===== Terek was sitting on a couch looking to the screen in front of him where the picture of ginger haired woman in blue science uniform smiling at him. "Yes mum I'm OK...." "Are you sure? You seem a bit.... preoccupied" Terek had to force a weak smile as his mother always looked right through him and alway seen if something was wrong. But not this time... this time nothing was wrong anymore. The whole crew of Chimera is moving to another ship, including Alex. He should be happy, but he couldn't rid of the strange thoughts. "I am, don't worry, it'll be all right. We just had a hard mission..." he sighted "...lots of people died" A compassionate look appeared on the face of his mum. "I'm sorry..." But in her voice was something more and in the moment she said those words, Terek knew what will come. He just shoke his head. "No mum, I'm not going!" He said probably loudly than he wanted. "Why are you getting upset right away, I didn't say anything." "But you wanted. You know we've talked about it many times. I'm NOT going." "Weranis, If you would just listen your mother sometimes. At least once. You know that we dissapproved your decision to board the SSF starship." Terek interrupted her. "Yes I know. I know very well. you wanted me to sit tight on some ground base to take care of terraformation of some remote colony or to perfprm research on a science vessel, but I've told you what I think of that." "But why? I still don't understand, what is wrong about serving on a science vessel? It gives you chance to do your best in your branch. To get to a new discoveries...." Terek knew that this discussion is pointless. He explained this to his mother loads of times, but she never understood. With sad and tired face he looked into her green eyes and said. "Mum, it isn't about what is wrong with the job on a science vessel or on the base, you know this. I admire both you and dad for what you can and what you do, but I want something more. I know science vessels gets to thorough explorations of scientific discoveries, but it isn't enough for me. I want to be there when soething is discovered or encountered for the first time. Science vessels gets there only when something is already discovered and when lots of people wrote a reports about it. I always wished to be first to see something unknown. And serving on the SSF ship gives me the opportunity. I know that Chimera and other SSF vessels are with their primary determination a military crafts, but they usually get to the front rows when something is going on. And what is a greater temptation than to see all those amaying thing first?" His mother gave him one desperate look. "My dear, you know how me and your father love you. We want only the best for you, as do all parents for their children. But we also don't want you to be in danger and we think... I think, to serve on such death machine you are now isn't the safest assignment you can get." Now that was something that could make his blood to boil "Mother, If I would want a safe job, I'd be a farmer on Valaris. I wanted to see something, to do something usefull for the federation and if it is aboard the Chimera, so be it. You know this assignment is the best I could hope for and you or anyone else won't talk me out of it. I decidet to take this place and I will do my duty to the best of my abilities. No matter what it cost. And no matter how much I love you or dad can't change my oppinion. I called you because I thought you would be happy of my promotion and that I'm alive, but if you want it this way then all right. You can't even imagine what we've seen. Nothing I've ever experienced can match this mission." He took a afew deep breaths to calm down as he didn't want to yell on his mum. it wasn't right, he loved her, but somethimes, she could be so overcaring that it almost felt like being locked in a containment field. "Mum, please undersant. This is what I want. This is where I am happy. I do the job I wanted, I am with people I want. I regret deeply that I can't spend more time with both of you, but this is my life and despite how much I appreciate all you've done for me, I have to live it for myself. I'm sorry for my anger, but I want you to understand that this is really my choice." His mum's face now looked almost like she would start to cry. Her eyes glared with comming tears. "Mum, please don't cry, it won;t change anything and it will only tear my hearth apart, you know it...." He said with a compassionate smile... "You know we both love you Weranis. I didn't want to go through this conversation again, I'm sorry..." "I love you as well.... Mum, I have to go now. With the destruction of Chimera all my personal belongings were destroyed and I have to replenish my things before we'll depart. I'll write you when we'll board a new ship. I love you, please tell it also to dad. I hope that on the next R&R I'll see you both personaly. Good bye.." "Good bye darling and when we can;t persuade you to change your mind, at least take good care of yourself and try not to die.... I love you, bye..." And with the tear dropping down her cheek Terek terminated the connection sending an air kiss. Now he realised that he wasn't alone in the room. Shortly after he began his call, Worik came in silently and unvolunterily overheard their conversation. "I... I'm sorry you had to hear this...." appologized Terek. "It is all right. Family can sometimes be very... irracional..." Answered Worik in a Vulcan tone without emotions, but somehow Terek knew thah he know this situation or something similar as well, so he just nodded.. "Thank you, See you later, I've got to go for some clothes and to pick up my uniform from a taylor shop." and with this he left the room, heading for a promenade. ===== End Log ===== Lt. JG. Terek Weranis ASCiO USS Chimera